winter

Not here

I look out the window, rain running down. The cat wet at my feet. Washing waiting. Clothes need folding. A crack in the ceiling expands. I think of the sea. Of the waves that crash. The ones that lull. The fret that kisses my face. Pebbles I hold tight in my hand. Not ready to give up. To give back. To hold close a little longer. Right now, as the clock ticks, the day wastes. I’d rather be there, not here.

Ice

Yesterday, I fell on the ice. And I wonder this morning. If all of me got back up again.

My bones bruised, my eyes tired. I sit here thinking what I left behind.

What I no longer have. Because I fell and no one was there, to pick me up, to wipe me down, to see what it was.

I lost. On the sheet ice.